BOTTOM OF THE BARREL

****WARNING**** THIS POST CONTAINS MATURE LANGUAGE AND CONTENT AND SHOULD NOT BE VIEWED BY MINORS OR ANY OTHER WEAK MINDED OR WEAK WILLED INDIVIDUALS THAT ARE EASILY OFFENDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been awhile since I've last posted, but, as usual, the indy wrestling world in this area comes to a screeching halt in the winter months. So I haven't had much to say. I've been living my dream wrestling these past 8 years and I wouldn't change any of it for the world. Everything that has happened to me in that time has made me, I think, a better wrestler and a better person. I've always tried to be my own man and do things the way that I thought was right for myself and for wrestling in general. It may have been right, it may have been wrong, but at least I was always honest and upfront about everything and to everyone. I guess that is why a lot of opportunities have disappeared for me and a lot of doors slammed shut, because I spoke my mind honestly and didn't bend over and massage the egos of the people in charge. If I thought something sucked or was the shits, I said so, not in an attacking way but in an honest way. All I've ever wanted to do in wrestling is to enjoy myself, and put on the best match and show that I possibly can. If I saw something that I thought was hurting that I tried to help. If I had an idea that I thought would work I spoke up and offered it, just trying to make the show, and wrestling in general better. Which I kinda thought was the point, the better the show looks the better us wrestlers look. Obviously, the people in charge don't like that pesky little thing called the truth. They want there yes men to constantly tell them their the greatest even thou, 30 or 40 years ago when they were in their prime they were just as average as the rest of us, now they think they are gods gift to wrestling. Even thou I have only been wrestling for 8 years, which in my opinion isn't that long, it seems like option after option is drying up. I'm not trying to kid myself either, I know it is partially (OK probably mostly) because I am nothing more than an average wrestler with a subpar gimmick, but I think some of it also rest squarely on the fact that I have always told it how I saw it and was never willing to play ball just to get a spot. Call me stupid but I figured the guys who worked the best and put on the best show and entertained the fans were the ones deserving of the spots and pushes, but apparently I had it all wrong. Apparently it is the guys who know somebody, are cousin, brother, next door neighbor, or nephew of someone or most of the time the guys who will be,for lack of a better term, the "bitch" of the guy in charge who gets the spots and gets work. Oh well, FUCK IT! I've been doing it my way for 8 years and I will keep doing it my way for many more. And hell, if all else fails I can just start my own company again. The time I was running my own shows was damn good shows drawing damn good crowds. Now even that has turned into a bitch for one of these washed up never was companies! Not trying to sound bitter or anything, just doing what I do, telling it like I see it which is 99% of the time the truth! As always remember, Hate the Man Fear the Fugitive!